Little Talks

You have shown me a picture of grace with which I was once unconcerned.

Each passing day your image fades into a sea of gray.

This compassion and generosity so incomprehensible,

When can I flourish around you once more?

Love mirrored by you so strong and fearless, like a lion in action yet in the manner of a meek and gentle lamb.

Like a flower placed in the sun's rays opens up its petals to the world,

You stun me with your character, so Godlike. 

Allowing me to be the free soul I am.

Our hearts were once sewn together,

But now time beckons for the seams to be torn apart.

InstaFaves Pt. II

Here are some more snapshots from my Instagram profile...

Mind Wanderer

O, wanderer of my mind, how long are you here to stay?

Uninvited you come by, claiming you will not lead me astray.

Will you be like the others who have traversed before you?

Beckoning rampantly, seemingly without an end—

I wearily admit that my flesh implores who—

I cannot have, you see it’s a trend.

Your guise of good intentions keeps me holding on.

Our endearing memories replaying dusk till dawn.

Take me with you and wander alone no more.

Let’s be adventurers; I’ll help you find the door

Alienate

I feel as if I don’t belong,

And Lord, I know it’s true

My home is in another place

My anchor is in you.

Relate—alienate

Empathize—ostracize

My old self is being chipped away,

And I’m being rebuilt by thee

I am anxiously awaiting that beautiful day

When I am with you eternally 

-Insta photo I took and edited of my friend Emily-

An Enchanted Adventure (1/18/13)

     Sooo, this is incredibly late, but I thought I'd still make a post about this adventure for the sake of memories. . . 

     Back in January, I had the sweet opportunity of going to Enchanted Rock in Fredericksburg, Texas for the first time with my darling sisters in Christ, Hanna and Callie, along with Callie's now boyfriend, McKenley.

     It was incredibly beautiful and serene--not to mention super restorative for my soul. The Lord's timing is impeccable: the relationship I had been in for 3 years had literally just come to an end the night before we spent our whole day in nature. In addition to that awesomeness, I got to spend my day in fellowship with my Lord and Savior in His creation as well as with some of my family in Christ.

     The four of us hiked all over the place: we climbed to the top of Enchanted Rock and Turkey Peak, went caving (it was my first time doing this too) and traversed some trails. To be honest, I am stunned 'til this day that I made it to the top of Turkey Peak, for it's rocky terrain and height were quite intimidating.

This picture doesn't do it justice. . .

Turkey Peak

God is such a faithful God and withholds no good thing from us; after all, He did not even spare giving us His own Son for the sake of our salvation and freedom. 

 

"But God showed his great love for us by sending Christ to die for us while we were still sinners." - Romans 5:8

 

 Hallelujah!

 

My sweet sister in Christ, Hanna

Candid :)

All of us! From left to right: Me, Hanna, Callie, and McKenley

 

Memories 

Memories getting older and older as time rushes by

How soon until they completely fade away?

They can’t for each one is a part of me and my

Desire to relive them when I may. 

Gladness, sadness, confusion, and comfort

Could each one possibly bring.

All the while longing for the support

That my God alone can sing,

Into my heart and make me feel 

So incredibly fulfilled and enlightened 

Always faithful is He to reveal,

Truth in my life making it brightened. 

Spreak 2012 Rhode Island

The Ice is Getting Thinner

It's so wild and fascinating how God changes the seasons. Although I do not completely understand the "why", "what," and "how" now, I know that one day in my Heavenly home I will be faced with the fullness of understanding.
The Lord has been reminding me of how I need to put an end to my striving of trying to figure everything out "piece by piece." It is not for me to know and understand for The Lord says, "my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are my ways your ways" (Isaiah 55:8).  
My heart deeply aches, and my eyes become swollen with tears, but The Lord hears my cries and sees my tears; He is my beautiful comfort to the pain embedded inside. He intervenes in the most wonderful of ways into my small, sheeplike world with utter gentleness and indescribable love. He has become more and more real to my heart as this time passes. Even though I wish to be completely healed, restored, and delivered from this situation already, I know I must allow myself the time to grieve in my Father's arms. This evening, I couldn't help but hear this song enter my mind from the depths of my broken heart. It truly captures what occurred between my brother in Christ and me during this wild season of our lives God allowed us to endure.

Here's to Death Cab for Cutie and their awesome music and to a relationship that has been one of the most impactful relationships in my life that God, by His sweet and saving grace, has ended:

"The Ice is Getting Thinner"

We're not the same, dear, as we used to be.

The seasons have changed and so have we.

There was little we could say, and even less we could do

To stop the ice from getting thinner under me and you.

We bury our love in the wintery grave

A lump in the snow was all that remained.

But we stayed by its side as the days turned to weeks

And the ice kept getting thinner with every word that we'd speak.

And when spring arrived

We were taken by surprise when the floes under our feet bled into the sea

And nothing was left for you and me.

We're not the same, dear,

And it seems to me

There's nowhere we can go

With nothing underneath.

And it saddens me to say

But we both know, well, it's true

That the ice was getting thinner

Under me and you.

The ice was getting thinner

Under me and you.